closerfluid's Blog

Sometimes I seriously hate living in this world! We are seriously forced to meet certain expectations and live a

certain way. Just because someone before us decided that's how things should be. I truly wonder if there is a

human being that is qualified to judge how we should live our lives. It's quite annoying when you have done

everything expected of you and you don't gain anything. I've come to realize that having a place where you feel

you belong in this world is much more valuable than being rich and not even feeling there is a reason for your

life. I know no heavier pain than feeling you don't have a place in this world and your life is worthless. Whether

it is true or not is irrelevant, what matters is how you feel. The sun rises and sets based on your perspective of

the universe. It's just so frustrating to have certain behaviors accepted by certain groups of people and not by

others. People are quick to condemn differences between one another. No one is willing to embrace those

differences. They could have easily been in the place of the person they feel is different from them. Since I

was little, from religion I have always heard that all humans are equal. I've always pondered on the meaning of

that. If we are equal shouldn't we make the same choices. Have the same weaknesses and strengths. In a

sense if we were all perfectly equal, we would be perfect. Since, there is no greater potential we can activate.

Our abilities would have no room for improvement simply because we see none more advanced. It was

confusing. It was a very complex idea for a little kid. How could the president command a nation if we were all

equal; he shouldn't be able to tell us what to do. Being a child, everything adults say must be true so I always

felt there had to be some way it would make sense. Now I realize that it's all about our experiences. We are all

equal, however our perspectives give us different experiences of the same events. As human beings we

grow with our experiences and if our experiences are not the same we can not grow the same. Basically we

are equal, because if we were in one another person's life we would be one another. If you were brought up in my

body in the same neighborhood as I with the same parents as I and being the same position in my family as I in

the same time, you would be me. Your experiences will cause you to make both good and bad choices. You

would carry my strengths, but also my weaknesses.

If we would all make the same choices if in each others shoes, then why do we criticize and condemn

What is the point?

You are no better than I, and I am no better than you. My mood: extremely disappointed

1. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Football players

2. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Talk in my sleep

3. WHAT KIND OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
I'll listen to anything as long as it sounds good and isn't about anything stupid I never try to limit myself.

4. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
I miss my childhood so much, I miss being an innocent little growing human being who did nothing but having fun. Back then, everything was so colorful and new and simple. When I went to social events with my parents or just to any public place, I could just run around like an idiot and no one would care. And I didn't have to worry about not knowing stuff because I could just ask and I would receive an anwser, now I'm always afraid to ask about stuff I don't know because I don't want to sound like an idiot. Know one really cared too much about these things girls had on their chest or boys had in their pants. You could have a boyfriend or girlfriend and not be a couple. I miss pretending, I miss building little forts with cushions and sheets. I miss having days off... God, that felt so good. I miss watching a movie countless times and never getting tired of it. Now I DON'T want to wake up at all! I just want to stay in my bed because I don't want to face the ****** day that's about to come.

5. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Buffalo chicken

6. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Yup some of my fingers.

7. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Yup a few other countries.

8. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Happiness

9. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yup mom’s father.

10. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
They say they want something but never accept that they have it.
Also,
a woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn't work out, we'll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired.

11. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
It was so peaceful (environment-wise)

12. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Sometimes Axe sometimes Head and Shoulders

13. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Who wouldn’t!!!!

14. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
Well friends are there for benefits.

15. DO LOOKS MATTER?
For me a lot less than most people I try but its really hard to help when society keeps enforcing you to conform. I try to treat everyone the same despite looks.

16. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID
Hellllllll yahhhhh

17. IF YOU HAD A SUPER POWER WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Reading people’s minds. WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU THINKIN BOUT!!!

18. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Party mix.

19. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
If you don’t use ur head ur not for me.

20. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
Laptop

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Just a fan

22. THE LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Ensure

23. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Playing basketball

24. BOXERS OR BRIEFS?
Both idk?